There May Be A Name Change in My Future!

Well, my blogs future anyway..
I'm going to finish something this week!
It wasn't Monday like I planned on and it wasn't yesterday. I'm hoping for this afternoon but I highly doubt it. It does HAVE to be done by Friday though.
What is this I am talking about?
A craft? Fixing something around the house? Sewing one of my children's pants back together?

No, it is something much harder for me than ALL of my "To-Do" and "Haven't Got It Done" lists combined!!

I am going to tell my neighbor that I am FINISHED watching her little boy! I have let things build up to the point of no return and I have to put my foot down. This is the only way I see that happening.
I am such a quitter!!!!
There! I said it!!! I'm a QUITTER!!! I am by no means proud of it but this 'Babysitting' job is causing major problems at my house!
I am neglecting my own children to take care of another for a measly two dollars an hour.
I know money isn't everything but if I'm going to be neglecting my own children to care for another who needs more attention than I can give by all means pay me more so I can pay somebody else to watch my kids!!!
It's not helping my marriage either. This morning our doorbell rang at 7 because I hadn't opened my front door yet!! I may be out of line but isn't that a little rude? I mean, would it be too much to ask for you to Knock first???

There is a whole list of other things I've been letting happen by not putting my foot down. But I don't want to air everything. I'm a little embarressed by the way I have been letting people treat me!

On another note, Sean has given me his full blessing to go gung-ho with working my Scrapbooking business. That's a super-duper plus! He has been surprising me everyday for the past couple of months! I think he's getting pretty excited about turning 30 on Saturday!!

3 Months and 2 Days....

since my last post and I probably wouldn't be able to tell you a single thing that has happened!
Well, that would be a lie.... so I think I will just start fresh!!
Because if I start dwelling on the things I haven't blogged about in the past 3 months I will probably just start crying!! (One of which was me not telling Taylor's birth story) My heart still aches a little everytime I think of that. But there is next year and that one post I didn't do is probably the real reason I haven't been blogging.
So, back to the reason why I am blogging.....
Drum Roll please.......RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
(Did anyone else have a 'Clark Griswold' moment there? I sure did!!)
I GOT A LAPTOP FROM SEAN FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!
I know, I know, it's not Christmas yet, but we ALWAYS have a hard time keeping presents from each other. Plus I picked out and ordered it so I guess it really doesn't count! Right?
I have been dreaming about the day that I had my Laptop and I could be sitting somewhere Blogging!! (Instead of stuck off in some other room by myself) And this day has finally come!!
I'm going to be a blogging son of a gun!! Of course after I finish EVERYTHING that has to be done before Christmas.
I guess I will start blogging after the New Year :(
I'm going to make my little To-Do list right here so I can come back and check it and hopefully blog a little!

1. Clean entire frickin' house before Christmas because Sean's parents and brother's family are coming down to spend New Years with us! (That! My Wonderful Friends will be a couple of posts in and of it's self!! I'm sure I will be hiding in a closet somewhere typing about that one while they are here!!!)

2. Finish up a couple of Craft's for a PTA Money Raiser at the girl's school.

3. Finish up Christmas Shopping and wrap all presents before the girls get out early on the 18th. (which reminds me about 4)

4. Make treats and attend each of the older girl's 'Winter Parties' ( I understand why they do that, but Merry CHRISTmas anyway!)

5. Bake some goodies and desserts for Teacher Appreciation days next week.

6.7.8...10....15.....20..
I thought there was more. Maybe I should have listed what I have to clean inorder to do an overhaul on my house, but then I may not have any friends anymore because you would know how messy and cluttered my house has really gotten!!

That's enough for this post or I may not be able to come up with anything else to write this year!
I think Hayleigh is ready to get out of the tub now and Sean is blown away by me typing in the bathroom. I probably need to go and check on him to see if he has recovered yet..
My reply to him was 'How do you expect me to be the next Stephanie Meyer if I can't type whenever the mood hits?'
He just walked right on out of the bathroom!!!

Comfortable Shoes

The past couple of weeks I have been feeling euphoric and I really couldn't understand why. I can't recall that I've ever felt this way for so long. Don't get me wrong, I still feel a little beat up some times but it doesn't take me long to get over it. I've always been afraid to be happy too long for fear that something bad or disappointing is sure to follow. But I've been pushing that away and just living in the moment, I guess you could say.
I'm realizing that no matter what happens, God, my family and friends will get me through it.


My title is not talking about real shoes but how I've become comfortable with myself and where I am in life right now. I have some wonderful friends right now. It's taken me awhile to build up these friendships. I've found some real 'crazys' and for awhile I figured it was me. I am the crazy one because I can't keep friends. But that's not true. I've had to weed out the crazys before finding the good ones. I hope you good ones know who you are. I know I haven't always been the model friend but I have been working harder on that. I've had friends leave me and I don't want to do that to you all.

And I think that's what's playing a big part in my euphoria. I'm becoming stronger in my faith than I have ever been. I have always prayed and talked to God but I feel like my relationship with Him has become much closer than I've ever allowed it. I think this has allowed me to become more confident of who I am and allowing me to be a much better wife, mother and friend, I hope.

I cannot believe how fortunate I am to have my husband. It is so nice to be living with my best friend. We can talk about anything and I think it's just the fact that we do talk. Our favorite time of the day is at bedtime. The kids have finally fallen asleep and we can just sit and talk. No interruptions. This is our time. We catch up on what happened during the day. I cannot even imagine what it would be like if I didn't have him to talk to.... I've caught a glimpse of it and I don't like it... When we argue over something and both of us decide to give the silent treatment. It rips my heart to pieces and one of us usually gives in and starts talking to the other. It's never lasted longer than 24 hours because we are both acheing to talk to each other.

I'm also excited about the girls being in school again. But probably not for the obvious reasons. They love school. They love their teachers this year, again. And I'm just happy they are attending the same school two years in a row. We haven't got to do that since Madison went to Pre-K. I'm just happy that they were able to return to friends without making ALL new ones. I also was able to return to familiar faces. Even as a grown up that is one of the scariest feelings for me. Trying to make to friends!

So, here's to the good times and the bad because what would life be like if it was always predictable?


“Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back.”~Arthur Rubinstein

I ALWAYS go back to Wal-Mart.....

I decided to run into Wal-Mart this morning after Hayleigh's checkup to grab some paper towels. I remembered that H still had some money left over from Christmas so why not spend it? Dakoda and H had played with some Play-Doh at a playdate a couple weeks ago so we went 'whole hog' and purchased a whole bunch!!
D also wanted to go outside and look at the 'fwoers' so we ended up buying a couple of mums. Of course they had just been watered so naturally they were dripping. I set them on the bottom of the cart and didn't think anymore of them.

We finally made it to the checkout line. I put the 'fwoers' on the belt and the rest of our purchases. When it was my turn, the cashier didn't ask, "Did you find everything okay?" or "How are you doing today?" NO, she whispered, "Nothing like putting the dirty plants where the food goes!"
I wanted to say: Really? Cause where do you think most of our food comes from???? I'd rather my BOXED food be sitting in some wet potting soil then soaking in blood from a package of hamberger!!!! Wouldn't you????
But I didn't...... I just grabbed my flowers off the spinny thing and put them back in my cart. While she hatefully grabbed some paper towels from the next checker and wiped it up.
After that little incident she asked me how I was doing like nothing had happened!!!

I guess this is why I have my blog though......so I don't bite a real persons head off.....I just talk about them here.........

Disappointed

I feel a little disappointed with myself.
I thought for sure I would be posting ALOT this summer. Boy was I wrong. I've done good to get one post a month up. There have been so many things I've wanted to blog about and either I haven't made it to the computer to do it or I sit down and forget what I wanted to say.
All I can think, is school will be starting in two weeks and I hope I can get back into the swing of things.
Oh and if anyone has a laptop they want to give away....look me up cause I think that would help me out ALOT!!!
I wouldn't have to keep running upstairs to my computer!! :D

Why Do I Do This To Myself??

For whatever reason I did not read Twilight when it was the craze! I think I had my suspicions that I would become addicted to it and I was not ready for that yet. I did wonder what the big deal was and why everyone was so crazy about it. I did not realize the craze was Edward Cullen instead of the story itself.

Last Thursday the kiddos and I went swimming at a friends house and before we left she handed me Twilight to read. I started reading it around 1:30 pm Friday afternoon. That was my first mistake. I very hesitantly would put the book down when my children needed the silliest of things... i.e. food, diaper change, nap. How could they be asking me for these things while I was reading?? Did they not understand what Mommy was reading? This book was almost as important as the Bible!! I said ALMOST!!!! and I'm kidding!! The Bible is VERY Important!!

I even managed to feed everyone supper and help Sean restring the weedeater. And after everyone was in bed I continued to read. I could not believe the feelings I had while reading this story. I kept having flashbacks of when Sean and I were dating in High School! I felt like I was Bella!! Except for the whole VAMPIRE THING!!

I finished the book 14 hours after starting it. I practically crawled into bed at 3:30 Saturday morning and had THE MOST Bizarre dreams EVER!!!! Sean thought I was crazy and maybe I was.

That was not enough. I HAD TO WATCH THE MOVIE!!!!! So, Tuesday the mailman delivered it and I watched it!!

I AM OFFICIALLY ROBSESSED!!!! I just can not quite thinking about him. Vampire form or not, HE IS HOT!!!! I know he is younger than me. I never thought I would have such a crush on someone besides my husband!!!

But then I got to thinking, even though this is not healthy..it is safe. There is NO WAY I will ever meet Robert Pattison or that he will EVER know I exist. So, even though this is in no way a win win scenario...it is safe.

But I do have this song that I would love to sing for Rob if,

a) I wasn't married

2) I didn't have children

c) I met him and he had feelings for me

I know...I can hear you laughing at me. But isn't it perfect???

That's probably all I should say now before I seem TOO crazy!

But I do need to go and check out my two new FAVORITE Blogs!!!

Inappropriate Twilight Obsession and ROBsessed

July 2, 2001

5am - I wake up starving!! I was not supposed to eat anything after midnight last night and that includes breakfast this morning!!

So I take a shower, shave my legs of course and get my clothes on.

5:30am - I watch Sean drink his coffee and eat a egg sandwich....it's so not fair!!!

6am - Sean takes my Nike duffle bag and pillow out to our black Neon.

We pull out of our drive way for the last time as a family of two!

7am - Arrive at the hospital and 'waddle' up to labor and delivery.

9am - I have IV's coming out of my body! Pitocin is started at a VERY low dose.

What was I thinking? I shouldn't have gotten pregnant!!!

10am till 12pm - Pitocin is gradually increased.

What's the big deal about labor? This is a breeze!!

12pm - 3:30pm - I am only allowed to eat ice chips and "gross lemon sherbet thingy"

After this baby comes out...I'm eating the biggest burger EVER!!!

3:30pm - The Doctor comes in and Breaks my water.

Dr. L: Wow, you have a really tough bag of water! *jab, jab, jab*

Me: *whispers* ow!!

Dr. L: Let me try this AGAIN!!! *jab, jab, gush!*

Dr. L: Oh, there we go!

Me: *a little louder* OW!!!!!

3:45pm - 8:40pm - My mom, grandma, aunts and brother arrive.

A lot of pain, crying, uncomfortableness and a little bit of demerol, way to early!!!

8:45pm - I feel the urge to poop!!

Apparently that meant I was ready to have a baby and the only thing I could think of at this moment was that my va-jay-jay would never be the same!!

8:50pm- 9:00pm - A lot of 'I can't!!! I'can't!!' 'It hurts!!' 'Help me!!'

9:01pm - A beautiful baby girl was born!!

Madisonann Augusta weighed 9 pounds 10 ounces and was 21 inches long.

I would have loved to show a precious newborn picture of my baby, but I can't get the darn thing to scan!! So instead you are seeing what she looks like today!!

I'd have to say it was well worth not eating for 24 hours!!!

I love you Madi!! Think you for being such an awesome first born!!! Just like your momma!!

I can't believe it's already been 8 years since the day I had my first baby!

Sometimes it feels longer and I feel older than I really am.

Oh to be 19 again and be so naive about what's to come!

I have grown up so much these past 8 years. (On the inside and out)