We are STILL ALIVE!!!!

There is so much that has gone on in the last two months!!!
and I can't believe none of it has showed up on here! I start talking to myself about what we have been doing this summer and then I look at my blog and it's not on here!!!

Let me tell you I have BIG PLANS for getting that straightened out!!
School starts in 1 week and I have never been so excited to ship my kids back to school before!!
Do you know why I am so excited??? It's probably mean of me......just a little..... but my younger two are going to 'school' also for 2 days a week!!!! Sean let me enroll them in the Mother's Day Out Program and I am going to have about 9 1/2 hours a week, all to myself!!!
Grocery shopping by myself!!! What's that??? This is going to be a whole new deal to me!!! The last time I was able to go grocery shopping by myself and not have to rush to get back was 9 years and 2 months ago!!! Scary stuff, huh??

I'm hoping to finish getting the house organized (aka decluttered), set up for a humongo garage sale, make hair bows and other crafts to sell, work my scrapbooking business, set up a meal plan so I can 'freezer' cook for the month, BLOG!!!!, and probably a few more things....... Now that I'm looking at this list, I'm getting super scared and I'm probably going to end up sitting in a corner sucking my thumb and rocking my self for the first 2 months that I don't have ALL of my children with me!!!!!

Wondering where I go wrong?!

I'm thinking that I posted the last Post too soon!! When will I learn that I need to finish something out before I start patting myself on the back?

I took the girls to the Library around 10 this morning so they could return/pickout more. Our Library has a reading program every summer to earn 'bucks' for prizes! Thank goodness my girls like to read or I'd be wondering what their intentions of wanting to go to the library 3 times a week were!!

H threw a nice little fit in the Library!! She's been nice and quiet and sweet before! But NOT today! She got mad because I walked past the book baskets and didn't let her get one......she got mad because she couldn't carry the HUGE basket with her books in it!.....even more mad when I tried to help her carry it!!! (I might carry it off or something?!) I wanted to grab a book to read but while I was looking she was screaming because we couldn't see sisters and 'I WANT SISSIES'....shhh, we will go back to them, please for the love of pete just let me pick out a book I will actually read!!!.....we walk back over to sisters and H starts screaming: my seat! my seat! M moves over without even being asked, H crawls up in the chair and proceeds to throw puzzle pieces all over the floor.
All I can think at that point is WHO IN THE HELL IS THIS KID?? WHERE DID SHE COME FROM AND HOW DO I RETURN HER???????
I'm telling you, she really does NOT act this way all the time. At least I don't think she does? Maybe I forgot my 'rose-colored glasses' at home and have seen how my 2 year old really acts?

We left!!!! With our books of course! I just could not make anyone else upset by leaving without them! Besides what were the kids going to do later when we got home while I was rocking in the corner and sucking my thumb? God knows I cannot leave them to their own devices or I will be in much worse shape then I began!!!

After we piled into the van ( I really want to name her, any suggestions?) we headed up to the school for free lunch! I planned on letting the girls play on the playground after we ate, but you know what happens when I plan something fun!!
H was up and down, up and down, off the seat. Then after she finally ate, we went to throw the trash away, but she ends up dropping the tray and uneaten corn kernels bounce like beads all over the floor! NICE!!! la sigh ..... So I had to wait for 'the cleanup lady' to come over with her broom, I said I was sorry and off to get D's tray. I made the mistake of not taking her up with me.... so as I'm dumping her tray, I hear fast footsteps! and it's D and H chasing each other around the cafeteria!!! Then I hear DON'T RUN!!!! YOU WILL FALL DOWN!!! YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO RUN IN HERE!!!! NICE!!! again!

I tell all the girls we are not staying to play. Which really bummed them out because they were eating with one of their friends and we had to leave. She was sad, I'm sure her mother was pissed. How do I know that? Because I just got a snarky little text from her that I could have mistaken as being sent by a teenager if it wouldn't have had her name on it!

I've realized today, I think I have made an uber-huge mistake but there is NO way to fix it!!
I HAD TOO MANY CHILDREN....and that makes me sad that I am not doing a very good job with them. I feel like I am over-extending myself and I am not tending to their needs very well.
I mean the easy stuff is taken care of, food, shelter, clothes. But I feel like I am not providing the other things, discipline, manners, fun times......
and it is very hard for me to be friends with moms who only have 1 or 2 'perfect' little angels. Huffing at me, rolling their eyes.... Wondering if I missed out on the Birth Control class?!

H is napping now. She ALWAYS wakes up happier after a nap. That will happen today too, right?
And tomorrow we have plans to go back to the lake! The sandy beach, some cloudy water and the sun....that will make it all better too!!! Ya, all better!! (my thumbs calling me)

First Week of Summer Vacay!

This morning starts the end of our first week of ALL four of the girls being under the same roof once again! And honestly, we've had a pretty fun week! The first couple of days, D and H were having a hard time having 'sisters' home all day. (We are having to re-learn sharing toys and mommy!) By Wednesday, things had started to smooth out a bit!

I told myself that I was going to try and 'keep house' a little better this year so if somebody calls and asks if we want to do something that day, I won't be making excuses to stay home because the house is a mess! (I feel so bad leaving the house a mess!) So, Monday morning after we had all ate breakfast, I had the girls start their chores. M is in charge of dog clean up, picking up hers and T's shared bedroom and taking out the recycables. T is in charge of unloading the DW, bringing dirty clothes down from their bedroom and sweeping off the back patio. We are ALL in agreement that we cannot do any 'fun' things for the day unless chores are done!!
They didn't believe me at first, so it was 2pm Monday before we made it to the Library!! Tuesday, they decided to have everything done before lunchtime!!!

I am helping a friend out by keeping her daughter every Wednesday through Friday this Summer. It works out quite nicely actually. I know I've posted before what a hard time I have getting along with T. With this little girl here, there has been ALOT less back-talking going on!

I don't know if anyone else has expierenced this, but usually when my girls have friends over for long periods of time, the bickering begins!! This time has been different for us! The little girl has also spent the night Tuesday through Thursday nights and no fighting has occured!!! Yippee!! I can only hope it goes the same way next week!! And every week after!!

Our school district offers free lunches during the summer for children ages 1-18. We took advantage of this GREAT program last year a couple times a week. We would have went daily, but I didn't want to drive the 2 miles because we were 'really' low on funds last year! This year our school is offering the program. It started on Wednesday and we've been walking up to the school instead of driving. So, not only are the kids getting free lunches but we are getting 1 mile of exercise in daily!!

I better go and do 'my chores' right quick before the rest of the crew wakes up! I'd like to say everyone is sleeping in but that is so not true! Wake-ups around here are ranging from 7:30-8:30!! Considering that on school days, wake-up time was 6:30, I guess this is better than that!!

such a change.....

I've had all of these wonderful things floating around in my head for days. I've been wanting to post such pleasant things. I even had something float through my head a little earlier today.
Now I just feel like a big ol' bag of messed up craziness and all those pretty things are gone.
Hopefully my happy self will be back tomorrow cause this really sucks!!
I think I'm just finally fed up with feeling like everyone wants me to be around as long as their things are getting accomplished but once it's done so are they. GRRR.

Titles are so hard for me!

When I have 'free' time, I don't use it like I should. When I have things planned or going on, that's when I think of ALL the things I could be doing!
Last week, for instance, I babysat that cute little princess in my last post! And I was able to get absolutely nothing accomplished! I didn't even get any of my cleaning done that is on my daily cleaning calendar!! I completely forgot how hard it is for me to get anything done with a child in this house who is younger than oh, I don't know? Entertaining themselves age!! ha!
My house is by no means spotless! I am a MESSY!! There, I've said it!! I have tried so hard my whole life to keep things clean and clear of clutter but I NEVER succeed! I have to tell you my friends that I am getting closer! I am going through all of the girls clothes, toys and what nots and I am putting them in a garage sale!! There are things in the garage that have been boxed up for almost two years this month and I am going through them and getting rid of things!! I have held on to too much for sentimental reasons and that is just stupid. I see that now. I have been coming across things and wondering why in the heck I still have it!?!?!

My goal this week is to continue adding to my garage sale pile! but of course I have an excuse! For the past couple of days I have been working on a poodle skirt for my friend. They are having a Sock Hop at the girls school next Friday and she was needing one! Of course I told her I would do it! I LOVE doing all those crafty, sewing projects!! The only down side is that I have put the little girls' skirts on the back burner! Then sweet Mad told her teacher that I was making a poodle skirt for my friend so her teacher wants one also! Hopefully that one goes quicker. I tend to take forever the first time and then get the others done ALOT quicker! No matter what the project is!

Okay, so that is one excuse! What's next? It just so happens to be 'Teacher Appreciation' week and I have nothing done for that! Go Me! I was wanting to send something each day, but I'm afraid it will have to ONE BIG ORDEAL on Friday!!

and the third is actually a little exciting!! We paid our van off the beginning of March with the intention of 'bulking' up our savings. Well, we all know where good intentions take us!!! Don't we?
Tay ended up breaking her arm and the lovely Dr. we took her to for the cast doesn't work well with Personal care accounts. So we ended up paying $600 out of pocket that should have come out of that! Yippey!! And we will NOT be recieving that money until the middle of this month because they like to wait until ALL of the insurance claims have been filed and then just cut one big refund check! Why do things have to get so complicated? Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy that we even have this insurance, it's just such a pain in the butt to wait to get OUR money back! So, as you can guess, NO money has gone into savings!
Back to what will be going on tomorrow evening......Sean found a truck he liked yesterday that will hold all 6 of us and he really wants to buy it. There was some things they needed to fix on it tomorrow so as soon as they are done we are hoping to go pick it up.

I apologize for this kind of straying. I just lost my train of thought. I sat down on the couch to type this up right quick while the littles were on the other computer and sure enough they high-tailed it in here to 'yap' in my ear!! Dak has been constantly talking to me during this whole post so honestly I can't even remember what I just typed!!!
I guess I just need to go to bed and start everything tomorrow!!!

I did it again.....

or should I say DID NOT get anything done? The skirts are laying unfinished on my kitchen table, I haven't gone through the girls toys yet to have ready for a garage sale and I haven't switched the playroom and my craft room.

But I tell you! I do have a really good excuse for not getting anything done!!

Isn't she precious? Well worth putting off today what I can easily do tomorrow.... or next month!

A friend of mine from M&T's school needed help finding a babysitter for her grandaughter and guess who came to her mind? Ol' reliable of course! :)

I was only supposed to keep her for three days but since she had such a grand time with us, I will have her for atleast five more days!! (I apologize for any misspellings or weird wording. I am typing one handed because 'little precious' here will ONLY nap while I am holding her!!)

I better get back to reading blogs and trying to crochet with a baby on my arm!!

I've got High Hopes!!!!

I have started yet ANOTHER couple of projects!! I thought these would be quick but they are turning out to be so much more than I bargained for!!
But maybe this is a good thing. I can't get my pictures to upload to my computer anyway!!
I know I keep promising I'll post more, but I really promise this time!! :)
Promise!
Oh who am I kidding??
I am such a scatter brain!!