Why Do I Do This To Myself??

For whatever reason I did not read Twilight when it was the craze! I think I had my suspicions that I would become addicted to it and I was not ready for that yet. I did wonder what the big deal was and why everyone was so crazy about it. I did not realize the craze was Edward Cullen instead of the story itself.

Last Thursday the kiddos and I went swimming at a friends house and before we left she handed me Twilight to read. I started reading it around 1:30 pm Friday afternoon. That was my first mistake. I very hesitantly would put the book down when my children needed the silliest of things... i.e. food, diaper change, nap. How could they be asking me for these things while I was reading?? Did they not understand what Mommy was reading? This book was almost as important as the Bible!! I said ALMOST!!!! and I'm kidding!! The Bible is VERY Important!!

I even managed to feed everyone supper and help Sean restring the weedeater. And after everyone was in bed I continued to read. I could not believe the feelings I had while reading this story. I kept having flashbacks of when Sean and I were dating in High School! I felt like I was Bella!! Except for the whole VAMPIRE THING!!

I finished the book 14 hours after starting it. I practically crawled into bed at 3:30 Saturday morning and had THE MOST Bizarre dreams EVER!!!! Sean thought I was crazy and maybe I was.

That was not enough. I HAD TO WATCH THE MOVIE!!!!! So, Tuesday the mailman delivered it and I watched it!!

I AM OFFICIALLY ROBSESSED!!!! I just can not quite thinking about him. Vampire form or not, HE IS HOT!!!! I know he is younger than me. I never thought I would have such a crush on someone besides my husband!!!

But then I got to thinking, even though this is not healthy..it is safe. There is NO WAY I will ever meet Robert Pattison or that he will EVER know I exist. So, even though this is in no way a win win scenario...it is safe.

But I do have this song that I would love to sing for Rob if,

a) I wasn't married

2) I didn't have children

c) I met him and he had feelings for me

I know...I can hear you laughing at me. But isn't it perfect???

That's probably all I should say now before I seem TOO crazy!

But I do need to go and check out my two new FAVORITE Blogs!!!

Inappropriate Twilight Obsession and ROBsessed

July 2, 2001

5am - I wake up starving!! I was not supposed to eat anything after midnight last night and that includes breakfast this morning!!

So I take a shower, shave my legs of course and get my clothes on.

5:30am - I watch Sean drink his coffee and eat a egg sandwich....it's so not fair!!!

6am - Sean takes my Nike duffle bag and pillow out to our black Neon.

We pull out of our drive way for the last time as a family of two!

7am - Arrive at the hospital and 'waddle' up to labor and delivery.

9am - I have IV's coming out of my body! Pitocin is started at a VERY low dose.

What was I thinking? I shouldn't have gotten pregnant!!!

10am till 12pm - Pitocin is gradually increased.

What's the big deal about labor? This is a breeze!!

12pm - 3:30pm - I am only allowed to eat ice chips and "gross lemon sherbet thingy"

After this baby comes out...I'm eating the biggest burger EVER!!!

3:30pm - The Doctor comes in and Breaks my water.

Dr. L: Wow, you have a really tough bag of water! *jab, jab, jab*

Me: *whispers* ow!!

Dr. L: Let me try this AGAIN!!! *jab, jab, gush!*

Dr. L: Oh, there we go!

Me: *a little louder* OW!!!!!

3:45pm - 8:40pm - My mom, grandma, aunts and brother arrive.

A lot of pain, crying, uncomfortableness and a little bit of demerol, way to early!!!

8:45pm - I feel the urge to poop!!

Apparently that meant I was ready to have a baby and the only thing I could think of at this moment was that my va-jay-jay would never be the same!!

8:50pm- 9:00pm - A lot of 'I can't!!! I'can't!!' 'It hurts!!' 'Help me!!'

9:01pm - A beautiful baby girl was born!!

Madisonann Augusta weighed 9 pounds 10 ounces and was 21 inches long.

I would have loved to show a precious newborn picture of my baby, but I can't get the darn thing to scan!! So instead you are seeing what she looks like today!!

I'd have to say it was well worth not eating for 24 hours!!!

I love you Madi!! Think you for being such an awesome first born!!! Just like your momma!!

I can't believe it's already been 8 years since the day I had my first baby!

Sometimes it feels longer and I feel older than I really am.

Oh to be 19 again and be so naive about what's to come!

I have grown up so much these past 8 years. (On the inside and out)